What Nobody Tells You About the Awakening Process

Many different paths lead to awakening. There is no right or wrong path, only the path that honors your own Truth. Some stumble upon awakening accidently, others practice mediation for years, while others are stout Buddhists or pray to God. It does not matter, it is all the same. In awakening there is nothing but awakening, it doesn’t matter how you get there or how long it takes to get there. Honor your own path and follow your own intuition.

As I began unraveling the many ideas, concepts and misaligned habit energies in myself, my path was interwoven with Buddhism to begin with and then various teachers that were gifts from the Universe during challenging times.

When I started, I had no idea what would be asked to relinquish and also within that, no idea how hard it would be to actually do this. Honestly, I feel like a lot of teachings somewhat brush over this. It is extremely challenging and painful and difficult to let go of our long-held beliefs, fears and habit energies. It is so incredibly terrifying to say yes and relinquish your control to spirit. To let go, to give in, to accept, to trust—it can be so, so hard when you are in the midst of challenging situations. To give in when every bone in your body is saying no.

It feels like you are jumping off a cliff with no landing.

It feels like being pulled through the depths of a fire pit with no end in sight and no way out.

It feels like you are dying, absolutely and utterly dying.

It feels like you are losing your mind and going insane.

It feels like nothing makes sense and never will again.

It feels like utter agony and depthless wallowing.

It feels like letting go of all that you ever knew.

It feels like there is nowhere to stand, nowhere to go, everything is crumbling.

It feels like stop you in your tracks, immobilizing fear.

All you want to do during this process is curl in a ball and hide. But you can’t. The universe is calling on you to wake up.

So what do you do….

When you are so exhausted, so upset, and so at your limit. You bow. You relent. You give in.

And even if it’s a tiny little crack in the ego’s dominance, spirit will rush in. It will rush in with love and light and joy and it will feel like melting butter. And you will know, that this is the path. This is the only True path and whether your ego likes it or not, you will continue, one step at a time, you will continue.