Transitioning from the Old to the New

I stand before you today deeply transitioning between the old and new.

This is not a shift of just the mind.

This is not a shift of the personality.

This is not an external shift.

This is a shift of being.

Of going from the future or the past to the present.

Of going from desires and grasping to just being.

Of going from fear and worry to love.

Of going from being driven by labels and like and dislikes to non-judgement.

Of going from wanting life to change to accepting life as it is.

Of going from me, me, me to we.

Of going from thinking and planning and strategizing to not knowing.

Of going from impatience to patience.

Of going from always making things happen by intense drive and doing to trust.

Of going from the ego mind to letting life force presence flow through me.

Am I doing well at all of this, no. Am I willing to let the grace of life force continue to transform me, yes.

The toggle between the old and the new feels as if a war is going on inside of me. Ego keeps yelling I want it my way and I want it NOW. It’s a screaming toddler. It yells mean words. It’s berating. It’s doubt. It’s mistrust. It’s wanting things to change now. It’s an energetic force within you. It feels oily and misguided and only in it for the ‘me.’ It sneaks up on you when you least expect it. It wiggles its way through and says NO. It’s long held fears. It’s worries about the future. It’s trying to keep the small me safe.

The new. The new feels like peace. It feels like contentment. It feels like presence. It’s very neutral. It has no agenda or desires. It feels expansive and open and limitless. It’s the presence of infinite possibility. It does not know what the future holds. It has no fears or worries. It simply flows.

I am with TRUTH NOW.

I am with LOVE NOW.

I am everything.

I am my Higher Self now.

These are the mantras that I say to myself hundreds of times a day.

And yet the ego is still there, but it is getting less. It’s lessening it’s hold. It is becoming less invasive. It’s loosening it’s grip slowly. I am my Higher Self now.

Slowly, it’s dissolving. Slowly I am becoming TRUTH. Does it feel weird, yes. The newness still feels so fresh. So strange. But I know this is the path. And I know that TRUTH will shine through with all it’s glory. And I know, deep down I know, this is truly who I am meant to become.