Judgement

In our collective consciousness right now, there is a lot of judgement. I have deeply felt this along my awakening journey.

And it’s not just judgement of others, it’s judgement of ourselves.

It’s being hard on ourselves. It’s saying that we don’t deserve something. It’s saying to ourselves internally that we are a bad person.

I have deeply felt this both within myself as well as the collective consciousness. And truth be told, at the end of the day, we are one and the same.

There were points on this journey when I would sit in meditation and a little voice would say that I wasn’t good enough to become awakened, that I wasn’t worthy of awakening, that I didn’t deserve it. My inner critic was incredibly strong at times.

And within my Dark Night of the Soul, the deep, buried kernels of this came to the surface in full force. But it came to the surface to be released. When I was in the depths of my spiritual Dark Night, there were moments when my ego mind would literally be yelling in my head at 4 a.m. It was so, so harsh.

I remember a particularly dark night in which my ego mind was yelling, and thrashing, and I was being so hard on myself. And I remember glancing up at the curtains and there was this intense flash of light. I didn’t realize it at the time, but looking back I know this was my spirit guides/angels sending me a sign that everything was going to be OK.

And looking back on what was coming to the surface during this time period, it was necessary because by bringing all of this judgement and harshness on myself to the the forefront, I was actually releasing it. I was feeling it all, becoming aware of it all so it could be released forever. Because none of this is truly who I am and all of it was simply acquired by outside influences.

After I walked out of the Dark Night, I had released so much, and I realized that while yes, I am by no means perfect and I mess up all the time, because welp I am human, this does not mean that I need to judge myself, or be hard on myself. It simply means that I am learning from my mistakes and growing. Because that is what we are here to do. To grow, to learn, to evolve.

Because I am actually pure love, pure light and pure expansive cosmic god consciousness. And I am no different than you or anyone else on this planet. This is who we all truly are.

But right now, many of us in our modern society are so judgmental and so harsh and we push ourselves, and try and prove ourselves so intensely, whether in our work, in our parenthood, in our athletic achievements, etc. and so forth. And so many of us do this to cover up the unworthiness we feel deep down, the judgement of ourselves deep down. We don’t truly, unconditionally love who we are, so we cover it up with so many different things. I have been there, and my main cover up was my job.

But if you are willing to go within, if you are willing to face and acknowledge this common thread amongst our society and if you are willing to release this then you will come to a place where you feel that you are pure love, pure space, and pure peace.

We are not our judgement, that is just the ego mind. And we don’t have to live from this place.

Instead we can live from a place of unconditional love for ourselves and for others.

Become aware of the judgement. Become aware of the inner critic.

The first step to any growth and any shift is simply awareness. By becoming aware you can shine a light on this and bring it to the forefront to feel and then release.

And when you release this and it is gone, you can be fully and unequivocally your radiant, beautiful self.

And you can love the wholeness of yourself and all parts of yourself no matter what.

The light within me honors and bows to the light within you.