With Gratitude

Feb 16

The awakening journey is filled with big emotions, tumultuous and intense time periods, a sense of scrambling through the dark with no light in sight, strange and uncomfortable physical sensations, and the list goes on and on.

But the good news is that this journey is not meant to be taken on your own. There will always be help when you need it most, there will be signs that will nudge you along your way, and your guides, whether you can connect with them throughout the process or not, they will be there supporting and loving you the entire way.

Help will come when you need it most.

The darkest depths of my journey would not have been possible without the love, support and guidance of the many teachers, mentors, and guides that helped me along the way.

This writing is to thank and honor them as well as provide a list of resources for others who travel this path.

To Connie Clancy, thank you for being the original supportive foundation when I first embarked on my awakening path as well as the one constant support throughout all these years. I had no clue what was happening at the time or what was in store and I know without a doubt in my mind that we were a universal connection and I was supposed to find you. I remember being in the depths of my first growth oriented Dark Night of the Soul not knowing what to do or where to turn as I was utterly unraveling at the seams and I picked your name from a list of therapists. I picked you and you picked me. Thank you for helping me see that I needed to grow, I needed to change and for being the constant support that you have always been. You were always the person I wanted to speak to most during the most tumultuous stages. Connie you are a true lightworker on this earth, thank you!

To Jayne Gottlieb, thank you for being the sparkling and amazing being that you are and for helping me through the physical aspects of the spiritual awakening journey through yoga. There were parts of my journey where yoga was incredibly important in order to physically move and release so much of what I had been holding on to, especially in what I call my ‘emotional flood gate releasing winter.’ Jayne you were always there as a mentor and loving support. You give so much to our community and are truly a part of the global awakening, giving resources and help for those that need it. Thank you for being the shakti goddess that you are.

To Adyashanti, we have never met nor have I been directly taught by you, but your books, online courses, and articles were a massive support during a very integral period of my awakening. Your teachings were another gift and sign from the universe as I was going through the intense kundalini portion of my awakening. Thank you for your wisdom, dedication to helping others, and immense literature and writings. I would have not made it through that tricky time period without them.

To Isira, in addition to Adyashanti, I have never met you nor been directly taught by you, but your books and online resources left a large impression on my journey and were a source of support, encouragement, but most importantly a gift for opening my eyes. Much of what I read in your autobiography was mind blowing to me at the time. You expanded my horizons and showed me what can be possible.

To Maria, you were the beacon of light and the massive support I needed during my spiritual Dark Night of the Soul. You were also another universal alignment during a time when I really needed some extra support. I don’t know if I would have made it through my spiritual Dark Night of the Soul without your guidance and might have reverted back out of it only to have to repeat it again without your help. I was so lost, so disconnected from source, and so overwhelmed. You helped me shift and start to build the stepping stones towards the new me on the other side of the Dark Night. Your website was also the only true source that really understood and outlined everything I was going through. I read, and read, and read everything. You are a true gift to this world Maria and I am absolutely honored to know you.

To Nirup, for helping me with guidance when I was still so lost and floundering and for giving me hope for the future. For also being the catalyst to start to connect with my spirit guides and for giving me the tools and resources to start to truly listen and trust my own intuition and my own inner power. You are an incredibly talented psychic and you gave me help and support when I was on the tail-end of my spiritual Dark Night of the Soul. You also reiterated for me that I was on my soul’s path—to spiritually awaken which brought about relief and alignment and gratitude when I was still in the throes of the darkness.

To Daphne, for showing me how powerful source is through energy & multi-dimensional alchemical healings. And for re-igniting the bond between Sky (my 10-year-old black lab) and myself as well as helping Sky heal and be a younger version of herself. You have taught me how powerful compassion and love is and that it doesn’t matter if you know that person well or not, when beings connect from care and love it’s incredibly powerful. I have never met you and only talked to you on the phone once, yet we connected deeply in a way that was thoughtful, kind and caring.

To The Great Awakening book by Mike Dooley and Sal Rachele, for gifting me with a vision for the future. For showing me what our world can look like when we exist from our hearts, and we build a new world based on love, compassion and nurturing each other and this beautiful mother Gaia. This was another universal alignment as I was supposed to read your books at that exact time, in that exact moment. Sal, your support is part of my future that I am not quite too yet at the time of this writing and I look forward to continuing along my path and being guided by the love and support of universal light and flow.

And last but not least, to my husband, Kevin. To my soulmate, to the love of my life, to my best friend, to my partner through it all. This journey absolutely would not have happened without your constant, and I mean constant, support. You were there through it all. You were there holding my hand, you were there when I was in the dark, you were there when I was falling apart, you were there when I was an absolute and utter mess. And you weren’t just there as a physical presence, you were there with your whole being and soul. Your love, your listening ear, your non-judgement, it was always there loving me unconditionally no matter what. You are the number one reason why I made it through the Dark Nights of the Soul, you are the number one reason that I made it through my kundalini awakening, you are the number one reason I stand here today, ready to help others walk this path. Because at the end of the day it is not me who is helping, it is us. Because you were always there by my side, always. Your love is boundless. And my love for you is boundless. I know it has not been easy but I see you—the real you. And your true heart impresses me every day. Thank you, Kev. I love you always.

Here is a list of other amazing resources and teachers who are all lightworkers doing really incredible work on this earth and who’s books and articles have been a great resource of support, love and hope:

- Myree Morsi: https://myree.com.au/

- Anita Moorjani: https://www.anitamoorjani.com/

- Lizzie Langston: https://www.lizzielangston.com/

- Gary Springfield: https://garyspringfield.com/

- Walter Machichen: Spirit Babies

- Thich Nhat Hanh: https://plumvillage.org/about/thich-nhat-hanh

- Sophia Persephone: https://sophiapersephone.com/

- Laure Lynne Jackson: https://lauralynnejackson.com/

- Clarissa Pinlola Estes: Women Who Run with the Wolves

- Shauna Niequist: Present Over Perfect

- Gisele Bundchen: Lessons

- Elizabeth Mattis Namgyel: https://www.elizabethmattisnamgyel.com/